When I was younger, like in the 11-13 range. I was doing things and thinking things that weren't "normal" for a boy. It's only now I realized why there this thought there was something wrong with me, because I had my thinking cap on backwards, to paraphrase a phrase. I remember many times, that these thoughts are wrong...I suppressed these thoughts and things for years. I'm 28 now and I realized that I shouldn't have done that, I am this way and I shouldn't penalized for it.
I remember wanting to be a girl, to turn into a girl, to dress like a girl. Being raised as a boy, and feeling like that...it made me think I was a freak. Was I ever comfortable with my male body? Probably not, on some level I was somewhat underdeveloped, I age physically slightly slower than some people. I remember being really fearful of changing in front of other males when in junior high school, most likely due to those thoughts I kept trying to suppress.
There were other things I kept thinking about, I kept ha