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A Life in transition: Wasted Time
I'm in my late 20s, do I wish I realized it sooner? In my way early teens, there were telltale signs. But I suppressed that part of me as much as I could, I had enough trouble fitting it as it was. I thought maybe something was wrong with me, and there was...I wasn't feel very "male". Only now, not long after my 28th birthday back in Jan of 2015 do I realize this.
If was born just 10 years later, I might have had a better shot and transitioning than I do right now. Especially do to voice concerns, teeth and my hair loss. I've known for a good long time I was going to go bald in some form when I got older, it runs on both sides of my family. I've had some teeth removed in my time as a male and they aren't in the best of shape either.
My voice is low too, which concerns me greatly if/when it will come time to pass as female. All of those things combined, make me wish I realized it sooner and didn't buy into what I was forced fed (so to speak) in my 28 years thus far as male. It feels like I wasted time, WAY too much time. A fear I have as of late, is that I'm too old to start now.
I know there are ways around the things I mentioned above, but I can't afford them anymore than I can afford to transition at this time. That may not be the same for anyone who reads this, it may not be "too late" in your mind for you to transition.
Bruce Jenner is "old" and he/she is doing it right at this very moment, I think it might have to do with a mindset you got to have. Like I said, there are ways around problems like the ones I have...but I can't afford them. You may have similar problems, your situation might be resolved easier than mine.
So don't lose hope or faith in yourself, you can do this...it just won't be as easy as you hoped.
"Nothing ultimately worth it is ever easy..."
I'm in my late 20s, do I wish I realized it sooner? In my way early teens, there were telltale signs. But I suppressed that part of me as much as I could, I had enough trouble fitting it as it was. I thought maybe something was wrong with me, and there was...I wasn't feel very "male". Only now, not long after my 28th birthday back in Jan of 2015 do I realize this.
If was born just 10 years later, I might have had a better shot and transitioning than I do right now. Especially do to voice concerns, teeth and my hair loss. I've known for a good long time I was going to go bald in some form when I got older, it runs on both sides of my family. I've had some teeth removed in my time as a male and they aren't in the best of shape either.
My voice is low too, which concerns me greatly if/when it will come time to pass as female. All of those things combined, make me wish I realized it sooner and didn't buy into what I was forced fed (so to speak) in my 28 years thus far as male. It feels like I wasted time, WAY too much time. A fear I have as of late, is that I'm too old to start now.
I know there are ways around the things I mentioned above, but I can't afford them anymore than I can afford to transition at this time. That may not be the same for anyone who reads this, it may not be "too late" in your mind for you to transition.
Bruce Jenner is "old" and he/she is doing it right at this very moment, I think it might have to do with a mindset you got to have. Like I said, there are ways around problems like the ones I have...but I can't afford them. You may have similar problems, your situation might be resolved easier than mine.
So don't lose hope or faith in yourself, you can do this...it just won't be as easy as you hoped.
"Nothing ultimately worth it is ever easy..."
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Just something I wanted to get off my chest, you may find yourself having problems of your own like the ones I talk about here.
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I was going to ask you to look at the writings of my dearest friend on DA when I noticed that this piece was in the group that she and I started. My original idea was to have a group that would deal with transgender things from more of a real world perspective than the other TG sites that are more about magical transformations.
If you have not done so already, let me suggest that you check out her autobiographical entries as they give a wide perspective on her experiences and might be of some use to you.
Best of luck as you continue on your journey.
If you have not done so already, let me suggest that you check out her autobiographical entries as they give a wide perspective on her experiences and might be of some use to you.
Best of luck as you continue on your journey.